So during the past month, I already told you that things have been crazy for me. I guess I will elaborate a little bit, as I know I turned my back on my followers, and I actually feel kind of guilty for this. I know we don't know each other, but you all have taken the time to comment and read my story, and the last thing I want to do is leave everyone in the dark.
Well I said I met with a psychologist and we started talking and he thought it would be a good idea for me to take an evaluation test. It ended up being something like 500 true or false questions...Everything comes down to standardized testing now right? HAHA...
Well anyways, according to these results, he does not feel as though I am suffering from bi-polar disorder. Here were the key points that he made or rather the testing made...I suffer from low self-esteem, I prefer instant gratification, I am depressed, I am unhappy with my career path as it is, some of the signs might show I might be a borderline- borderline personality type. Now this was the big question I had because borderline personality can be misdiagnosed as bi-polar a lot. Here was his response as I remember "this test gives results based on your answers and gives him the doctor a starting ground for treatment. Not always is the test 100% accurate but it can shine a light on things that might otherwise go unnoticed. This doesn't mean that I have borderline personality disorder, just that we share some traits."
My response..."Well crap, I am crazy"
In all seriousness, I think the test was a joke, as the questions were a bit silly in my mind, but I am not the professional here, so I am giving the benefit of the doubt. I go back and see him next week, so it should be interesting to see what he wants to talk about now. I am hoping the next few weeks or months can provide insight inside of me. Can show me why I have the anger issues that I have, why I am so untrusting, and uncomfortable alone.
Until next time, hope everyone has a great weekend!
